What Have I become?
Three years went by in a blink of an eye. As I sit and watch how the first years enjoy their lunch in the famous Bakti Cafeteria, it reminded me how I was just like one of them 3 year ago. Now, sipping my orange juice alone and flipping through the newspaper, they must be thinking I’m a lonely first year who has no friends, but I guess they wouldnt have thought that Im doing my masters..
Aaargh..What have I become? I dont know. I used to be so loud, hyper and all the super engerzied Elina. Now, I’m just plain quiet and listen more than I talk..At least, I used to shout or scream when I am angry. Now, all I do is smile and ccry in silence. I find it so hard to share what I feel deep down inside.
Well, the friendships and relationships that I’ve shared has played a part in shaping the person that I’ve become today. I know that every hurt will leave a scar and that scar is diverting my personality and I have no one to blame but myself..The unforgiveness that I’ve kept deep inside and have not learnt to let go is leading to a path that I do not dare to venture in..
Argh..just need to write..Have not been writing for a long time…..
Say a prayer for me would you? I need it..